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Who else is as glad as I am that the month of Feburary flew past? I hope March flies too. Let's get in today's business. Pardorn my manners, how was your day? I hope y'll are good?

Currently, I am……

Missing: Creating fashion post.

Wishing: I did not check my email yesterday because it has put me in a bad mood.

Wearing: Khaki (NYSC uniform).

Listening to: Soco, the video is out today!!

Admiring: No one at the minute!

Feeling: Sad. 

Appreciating: Nothing.

Loving: Nothing.

Watching: Big Brother, can Cee-c go home this sunday please.

Reading: The Exit.

Craving: Nothing, I am too full to be craving anything now.

Not sure of: The plans God has for me, I am confused.

Determined to: Do more.

Regretting: Nothing.

That’s it for today, thanks for stopping by.

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Happy new week TPJays. Today is story time and I am going back in time to five months ago when I saw the opportunity to follow my dreams (modelling).

I can’t remember how I stumbled on this ad but I saw a modelling ad and they were like email us a picture and I sent a picture from here. They got back to me saying that their manager loved everything about the picture and I have been shortlisted I was so gassed, in my head, I was like baby girl is finally going to be a model and all. So they sent me an SMS of the details of the office and stuff I need to bring along like 5 different outfits, a clean hair, no make up face and all. While reading the SMS I was like yes this is it, I am about to make it. They called me to book a slot for my appointment, before the call ended the guy mentioned I had to pay a deposit, at this point my normal self would have hung up but the other part of me was like you need to invest in your dreams before you blow, so BOOM I brought out my card and paid for the deposit.

Before the day of the shoot I had already checked out the company on Instagram and I was not impressed, this should have been a red flag but I really wanted to be a model I wanted it to be true so I let that go.

I skipped something, during the call they told me they had modelling plans like I would have to pay for soft copies and all in my head I was like I was going to skip that because I really did not need the soft copy, I just want to be a model.

Few days before the shoot I was having a second thought but I was told that I would have to come into the studio to get my deposit back so I was like okay let me just go to get my money back.

It was the d-day I had packed my suitcase because I had to travel from London-Coventry and I was told to bring some outfits so I took them along too just in case.

I got to their office right on time, okay let’s pause right here, so in my head, I imagined the studio was looking nice and shit like a modelling studio you would see in an American movie. I was disappointed when I saw the studio (this was another red flag but I carried on still).

So they started my makeup and bruh the makeup was shit and I went on to snapchat to rant about how a white woman did my makeup and it was shit. I really could have beat my face better and I am not the best at makeup sigh. At this time I should have packed my baggage and left but man wanted to be a model so I stayed. The photo shoot started and it was the worst! 

After the shoot, I was told to they were reviewing my pictures, that I should go grab some lunch and by the time I am back they would have a feedback for me.

I went to McDonald's for lunch but I did not want to eat because I was watching my weight I mean models do not have a big stomach and I was also anxious about the feedback so I just had a smoothie.

So I got back to the studio and I met with the manager and she told me I was top 2, do you guys know how I felt? Like my childhood dream was finally becoming a reality and in my head, I was like I am top 2 but I am not 2 lol. 

She went on to say I needed to pick a package so that they would be able to promote me to brands, this involved more money and i was getting uncomfortable because I really did not have much so I asked her if I could pay when I get more money and she was like once I leave its all gone (this was another time for me to carry my bag and be going but I stayed damn!) could not let the opportunity pass me by. So I chose the basic package because I could afford that if I emptied all my account and that was what I did, I emptied my three accounts right there, I did not want to lose my spot. After paying I signed some documents and I left the studio heading back to Coventry.

On my way home I was not feeling good because I just dropped my last money and I did not know when next I was getting money how was I going to survive before money comes? On the train was when I remembered that by that time next month I was not going to even be in the UK because I was moving back to Nigeria, at this point, I realised I had fucked up. I picked up my phone to ring them saying i need a refund because I am moving back and I won’t be back in the UK anytime soon and I was told i could not get a refund after leaving the studio and they have modelling agencies they work with in Nigeria so I would be fine but it would take about three months for them to sort it out. I still had hope guys but I already knew by now that aye mi the mi ti ba mi. 

After 3 months I emailed them no reply. I have emailed them about 100 times and still no reply and then I knew I was scammed by white people. After converting the whole money I invested in my dead dreams it cost me 100,000 plus Naira. I don’t care but that is a lot of money for you to get a reply at least.

No one should tell me that I have a model body or face because I will fight you. 

Did I do anything wrong in following my dreams? Have you experienced anything similar? Share in the comment box below.

Thanks for stopping by. Cheers!
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Happy valentines day TPJays, I hope we all celebrate it in a grand style with our loved ones. As it is the season of love I decided to write a letter to my lover. 

Hey Lover,

Whilst I am waiting for you, I am working on being a virtuous woman so take your time so I can be the perfect woman for you. I know I said take your time but can we meet already because my vision 2020 is to be married to you. And I want to have all our 3 children before I am 30 so hurry up.

 I want to share your dreams and home one day. Be my man and I’ll be your girl. I see my future in your eyes. I have never really fallen in love, so I am ready to give you all my love. I want to fall in love with your soul first. Oh, My GOD! I can’t  wait to meet the love of my life. I know you are going to treat me like the goddess that I am so I am not going to stress.

I pray for you every night before I go to bed, even though I have not met you isn’t that crazy?

I am anxiously waiting for us to explore the world together, I really want to tour the world with the love of my life. I love you to the moon and back.

I envision you and I ageing gracefully together and crazily in love with each other. As I write this letter it feels like you are right here with me.

I love you so much x

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